After all this time together, his raging, evil, twisted, latent monster surfaced and left me in total shock! Talking about it to anyone will only make my nightmare worse if he finds out, so I am venting here, anonymously. I have to have somewhere to let it out. I now know he is a narcissist, but what else? bipolar? schizoid? psychotic? schizophrenic? some other mental disorder? I hope someone can help me answer this and find a way to get me out of here!.
I have spent a bit of time the past few days reviewing my pattern of past relationships. I have concluded that I have a serious problem with my choices of men that I get into relationships with. I don't know if something in me is drawn to men that are controlling and/or abusive .... or if there is something in me that draws them to me. It just doesn't matter any more. I am DONE with permanent relationships! Time to live MY life the way "I" want to live it, without any man trying to stop me. I just have to figure out how to get out of this one, first.
Here is a video with a little more about my review of my past relationships. Thank you for stopping in. Comments are always welcomed and appreciated. Have a great day!