Reviewing my Pattern of Past Relationships

I have spent a bit of time the past few days reviewing my pattern of past relationships. I have concluded that I have a serious problem with my choices of men that I get into relationships with. I don't know if something in me is drawn to men that are controlling and/or abusive .... or if there is something in me that draws them to me. It just doesn't matter any more. I am DONE with permanent relationships! Time to live MY life the way "I" want to live it, without any man trying to stop me. I just have to figure out how to get out of this one, first.

Here is a video with a little more about my review of my past relationships. Thank you for stopping in. Comments are always welcomed and appreciated. Have a great day!

signed - Betty Sue

Dinner Rage and Attempted Dog Abuse

Last night was just so wild, my hands are super cold, and the hurt one is cramping and making typing very difficult, so I resorted to a video for last night's events. TL Ogre was raging, screaming, criticizing, ranting, etc., so hard that he didn't even make sense. He made all  kinds of accusations against me that were so far out that I didn't even know how to react, which made him rage even more because he said I was being too silent. He has TOTALLY lost it!

TL raged, criticized, name called, and more, all over a dinner he said I did not cook, when he stood there watching me working on it before he went in to take his nearly 2-hour leisurely soak in the tub. He also tried to make my old dog do without any heat in sub freezing weather. He can do what he wants to me and I will take a lot, but I WILL NOT allow dependent animals to suffer!

It was just too much to write, so here is the video, raw and uncut. Time just does not allow for that right now, sorry.

A Very Drab Christmas!

This has to be the gloomiest, most drab Christmas I have ever experienced! T L Ogre doesn't like Christmas decorations! He HATES Christmas lights, so we have none up. He HATES Christmas decorations, so none are up. He prefers not to have a Christmas tree up, so, so far, none is up. I asked and he is using the excuse that I am allergic to cedar trees so we can't  put one up. My artificial trees are still packed, who knows where. I said that just a dead stick with lots of twigs off of it would be fine with some decorations. He said, "Maybe." That probably means "I need some time to think of an argument against that one."

He also HATES Christmas music! How can anyone hate Christmas music! I asked to play some on the computer last night while we ate. He said that  he would go outside and eat by himself if I did. I won't do without Christmas music, too. During the day while he is gone, I sing Christmas songs as I am doing my chores around the place. I am sure I sound awful, but the dogs and chickens love it! LOL

Late at night, when I am still up a bit and he has gone on to bed, I listen for at least a half an hour to Christmas music on the computer (where he can't hear). It really brightens up my day! It helps my day end well, no matter what happened during the day. Just wish I still had a CD player and could enjoy them all day outside while I worked. I am just thankful that I can listen to some and remember the words to some. I will somehow enjoy this Christmas no matter what it brings.

signed -  Betty Sue