Crimeny Sakes, He's a NARCISSIST!!!!

Crimeny sakes, HE'S A NARCISSIST!!! In fact, he is, by far, the worst narcissist I have ever had the displeasure of meeting!  How did I miss this? After being in a relationship with one narcissist right after another, studying everything thing I possibly could so that it wouldn't happen again... how in the world did I end up here again? Not only did I end up here again, but this one wins the prize in narcissistic severity. He has had many wives and live-in relationships over the years, so I guess he has had a lot of practice to perfect his routine.

For those of you that may not be familiar with just what exactly a Narcissist is, or what Narcissistic Personality Disorder is, here is an excellent article that was written over on The Narcissistic Life. In fact, that entire blog has mountains of great info that all perfectly describe the Ogre I am living with. They could not have come closer writing about T L Ogre than if they had met him in person and lived with him! The first narcissist that I was actually married to for over 20 years is the passive-aggressive type. T L Ogre, beyond any doubt, is the explosive type. And as good as the first ex-husband was in the area of narcissism, T L Ogre's narcissistic abilities far surpass the ex's, without a doubt!

I have joined a Narcissist Support group over on Facebook, which, even after just one week has been a HUGE help! The problem is, T L Ogre is following me around all over Facebook and the Internet. He is still on my FB page (although, restricted), so it is hard to do anything on Facebook without his knowing. So, why is he still on my Facebook page?  Because I am still on his property. If I remove/block him from my page, he will ban me from using the computer/Internet. He is choo-choo training with passing out the "punishments".  Some punishments are simply because I won't do something his way, some are because he thinks/found out that I said something negative to someone about him (those are the biggest punishments), and some are because he gets a "fix" off of watching me suffer. If I remove him, where he can't follow me around, I will further be cut off from the outside world, almost completely. If I leave him on my page, I can't hardly communicate with anyone on the outside. Kind of makes it tough.

So, now I know he is a Narcissist, a very hard core, violent, raging Narcissist. Life here is still a living nightmare, but at least I know what I am up against. I also strongly feel that there are other disorders/issues involved. I am just not sure what those are, yet, aside from possibly multiple personalities. Input and suggestions are greatly accepted and appreciated!

Thanks for stopping in and listening. Have a good day!

Signed - Betty Sue

A Calmer Night, Another Person?

It has been a much calmer night. A bit strange, but calmer. I will take every calm moment I can get. No, things aren't any better, just different. Yet another "person" inside of my "Honey" surfaced tonight. He surfaced once a few months back and I had almost forgotten about 'him'. So, who is he?

This 'person' is very calm, mannerly, polite, laid back, and speaks with a strong southern accent and a very heavy drawl. His 'voice' is more nasal than "Honey's" or T L Ogre's and the tone is a bit different as well, not as deep as T L Ogre's, and not as high pitched as Honey's. He likes to just casually 'shoot the breeze' converse, like he was an acquaintance, but not quite a friend. It is very strange. He thanked me for dinner tonight, like he was someone that I had spur of the moment invited in for dinner. Kind of threw me.

A few months back was the first time I had seen this personality. We had gone in to town (a couple of towns over) to run errands and get supplies. As usual, we were coming home late at night. When we finally got out on the highway, we started to chit chat as we drove home. He talked as I described above and acted like we were casual acquaintances. He had NEVER done that before, not in that way. He acted like he barely knew me and I was just someone riding along with him as he drove home. Again, he was very relaxed, laid back, and had that strong southern accent and heavy drawl. I remember asking him if he was okay. He looked puzzled and said, "Yes, why?" This isn't, by far, a bad personality, but not someone I would have fallen in love with and joined into a relationship with, either. Again, this is totally mind boggling!

There may be yet a fourth person in there, but not just real sure yet, or if T L Ogre is just that broad. I will let you know more on this seldom, more calm personality as time goes on . . . . if I still have power and Internet by then, that is.  I keep finding myself wondering if all of these "personalities" know each other?.... know about each other? Do they like each other? Do they approve of each other? Do they like some better than others? Do they like one but hate another one? I guess I need to name this one, too.  I have never experienced this before.  Does anyone know anything about this?

Signed - Betty Sue