One second he is all sweet and nice, then that "switch" flips and he is a raging mad man! I have NEVER seen anything like this! I understand, now, why some of his past wives were so angry, so hurt, that they destroyed a lot of his stuff before they left. He is making one screaming, raging threat right after another that he is going to kill this animal and that animal, destroy my belongings, etc, if I don't live by HIS rules on HIS property. He had always said, so very sweetly, after I moved here, that it was OUR property, OUR home, now and I didn't have to keep asking if I could do this or that around here. He now says it is HIS property and treats me like his SLAVE. Actually, I think slaves get much better treatment!
He leaves me impossible chore lists to complete every day, now. He pins me in somewhere and I have to listen to yet another RAGING tirade filled with threats, name calling and other demeaning bursts, if I don't get it all completed. Or if I didn't get a different chore completed that I should have been 'smart' enough to know should have come ahead of one that he gave me. He sets me up, multiple times a day, now, for raging verbal beatings. My heart literally can't take it. I tremble all day, my heart races, and I can feel it pounding all through my body. I don't want to have another heart attack or mini stroke or a stroke. He doesn't care! I firmly believe, now, that that is what he is trying to do to me. More on that to come. My time on here is even shorter today, and he, once again, is saying he is going to turn the Internet off.
He says I am not making enough money with the Internet. I have no car to deliver things with, and I can't complete all those chores AND get things posted and sold on the computer. There is NO way to win!
No time to proof read today, sorry. I will go back and do that some day when I have time.... if I ever escape from here.
Signed - Betty Sue
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Tuesday, December 13, 2016
Saturday, December 10, 2016
T L Ogre says - No more cooking after dark!
Yep, NEW RULE! Just one more of those things to try and control me and take me down. I will admit, I am the world's worst about trying to use up every minute of the daylight and getting dinner cooked late, but I have always been that way. I try and I try and I try, and sometimes I make it. But T. L. Ogre's way of handling it is just wrong!
In the midst of all of his 'sudden' raging and controlling, he has commanded me to "No more cooking after dark!" For crying out loud, it gets dark around 5pm, now! And he is dead serious. The verbal beating would be horrific if I even tried. So, needless to say, I haven't had a hot meal in days and days!
It is really cold right now. We are living in a tent and I am outside most of the day doing chores in the cold. I have a lot of health issues and a hot meal, even a hot sandwich at the end of the day would be wonderful! I can't believe that I now find myself dreaming longingly of a hot meal :(
We have some hamburger meat, bread and some chips. The iron skillet stays ready and I have had a campfire going the past few days so I could cook some dog food (Simmered through the day in a large pot while I did chores. I would have been in even more trouble if I hadn't gotten that cooked so we could stretch out the dog food.). But I wasn't even allowed to take just a few minutes to toss a couple of meat patties into a skillet. It was after dark when chores were done and it was time to eat, so NO HOT DINNER! Just a cold sandwich or something out of a can.
It is a punishment, a control mechanism to break me down. He knows it will affect my health issues and he doesn't care. He is actually using that to break me down into submissiveness and obedience.
Signed - Betty Sue
In the midst of all of his 'sudden' raging and controlling, he has commanded me to "No more cooking after dark!" For crying out loud, it gets dark around 5pm, now! And he is dead serious. The verbal beating would be horrific if I even tried. So, needless to say, I haven't had a hot meal in days and days!
It is really cold right now. We are living in a tent and I am outside most of the day doing chores in the cold. I have a lot of health issues and a hot meal, even a hot sandwich at the end of the day would be wonderful! I can't believe that I now find myself dreaming longingly of a hot meal :(
We have some hamburger meat, bread and some chips. The iron skillet stays ready and I have had a campfire going the past few days so I could cook some dog food (Simmered through the day in a large pot while I did chores. I would have been in even more trouble if I hadn't gotten that cooked so we could stretch out the dog food.). But I wasn't even allowed to take just a few minutes to toss a couple of meat patties into a skillet. It was after dark when chores were done and it was time to eat, so NO HOT DINNER! Just a cold sandwich or something out of a can.
It is a punishment, a control mechanism to break me down. He knows it will affect my health issues and he doesn't care. He is actually using that to break me down into submissiveness and obedience.
Signed - Betty Sue
Thursday, December 8, 2016
Clocking Chore Times
My time to write my vents...
My time to release my frustrations, hurts and stress...
Has become even more scarce and limited.
T. L. Ogre is now clocking my chore times. He comes home from work, looks around at what chores I got done (That he perceives that I have done. I have always done far more than he notices.), both chores that I chose to do and the chores that he gave me to do, then mentally figures how long it should have taken me to complete them.
If he thinks I should have had them all done in a lesser time (and he always does), then he expects me to answer as to why more wasn't accomplished, why those chores took so long, etc. I mean, for crying out loud! If I had to take an extra long "sit" for some reason of nature, I would have to account for the lost time from chores!
Please forgive me if at times, there are typographical errors in my posts. I am usually pretty particular about proof reading all of my posts before they are posted, but in this situation, there are going to be times that they just get quickly written, then posted and proof read later. I have to empty it all out of me, have somewhere to spill it out, then go on with my day.
Signed - Betty Sue
My time to release my frustrations, hurts and stress...
Has become even more scarce and limited.
T. L. Ogre is now clocking my chore times. He comes home from work, looks around at what chores I got done (That he perceives that I have done. I have always done far more than he notices.), both chores that I chose to do and the chores that he gave me to do, then mentally figures how long it should have taken me to complete them.
If he thinks I should have had them all done in a lesser time (and he always does), then he expects me to answer as to why more wasn't accomplished, why those chores took so long, etc. I mean, for crying out loud! If I had to take an extra long "sit" for some reason of nature, I would have to account for the lost time from chores!
Please forgive me if at times, there are typographical errors in my posts. I am usually pretty particular about proof reading all of my posts before they are posted, but in this situation, there are going to be times that they just get quickly written, then posted and proof read later. I have to empty it all out of me, have somewhere to spill it out, then go on with my day.
Signed - Betty Sue
Tuesday, December 6, 2016
T. L. Ogre says - Go Pee Outside!
We use a composting toilet system. I don't mind. I actually like it better than a traditional flush toilet, less germs are spread. I do wish our composting system was a bit more up to date, but it works okay. What doesn't work is not being allowed to use it to pee in except for in extreme circumstances (just can't hold it long enough to get outside, in extreme weather, etc.)
When I first moved here, I didn't give it a thought and used the toilet when I had to "go", just as I had my entire life. But one day, T. L. Ogre insisted that I needed to go squat and pee somewhere outside and just do my daily business in the toilet. He said that using it to pee in made the bucket heavier and harder to carry out to dump. Geez, why don't we just dump it daily, or at least, every other day? Nope, no pee so it doesn't have to be taken out as often. *eye roll*
Now, I know that, at times, I do pee a lot, but geez! This is so degrading! I mean, there are times in life where you just gotta stop and take a squat in the woods or somewhere of the like, but on a daily basis? Come on! I don't mind the composting toilet, but I would like to at least use it!
Signed - Betty Sue
When I first moved here, I didn't give it a thought and used the toilet when I had to "go", just as I had my entire life. But one day, T. L. Ogre insisted that I needed to go squat and pee somewhere outside and just do my daily business in the toilet. He said that using it to pee in made the bucket heavier and harder to carry out to dump. Geez, why don't we just dump it daily, or at least, every other day? Nope, no pee so it doesn't have to be taken out as often. *eye roll*
Now, I know that, at times, I do pee a lot, but geez! This is so degrading! I mean, there are times in life where you just gotta stop and take a squat in the woods or somewhere of the like, but on a daily basis? Come on! I don't mind the composting toilet, but I would like to at least use it!
Signed - Betty Sue
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